it's painful!

only He knws the pain...

The day i feel like to murder someone

i hate her.

i am hepi

alhamdullilah..ti offers me a job.well,kinda..

i hope i can get 3k. ok la ..better than nothing.in this environment..nothing much i can ask kan..

hw can i get tht amount?

i need a job that can support my financial committments. it's no longer financial needs but it's financial committment. ya allah, i beg 4 ur mercy.

sampai hati mama

sampai hati mama tak pandang muka aku tadi..apa salah aku? sbb aku tak balik kg?

for god sake..she hardly can understand my situation. it's nt because of cats!!!

i want to go..i do..but all i said is..we need to come home by 6pm or 7pm.and she said...im lembik!! im far much lembik compared to akak..

allhuakbar...sedihnya hati aku..tersinggungnya hati aku..allah saja yg tahu..

she cant undrstand y akak always fall sick..wht's d point of going everywhere but d impact is on our body?our wirk?our quality time?

and gudnesss, i want to go home early bcoz my workplace is far..bukan dkt sungai besi,mama..all u need is to imagine, standing in the packed trains (TRAINS) FOR 1 HOURS MORNING AND EVENING EVERYDAY...and walk..and waiting for cab..and waiting for van..it's all..eating up myself..
mama...nape mama bencikan adik sgt...nape mama?

my life as trainee

it wasnt as gud as i hope. tht's d fact. im lucky though they look me up high as im an INCEIF graduate. tht's d plus point. but the not so best part is they tot im snobbish. so they ignore me. well, tht's fine with me.

but the travel is really a problem to me. man, it's damn far. i've to get up as early as 6:15am. stand for more than 1 hr each every morning and evening in trains. d thing is..i've to go to masjid jamek and passed bangsar area..which is abt 10 minutes drive from my hse.

wow...this is a very painful experience. at the end of this, i really hope it is worth more than i ever experienced before. it teaches me preserverance..it teaches me patience and it teaches me to be an independent person who wants the best for herself and the industry. i cant simply let the things as it will be.

it is me who wnts to be in the industry.

to every girl..

To every girl that
dresses cute, not skanky.

To every girl who
wants to be called beautiful, not hot.

To every girl that will spend her whole day
looking for the perfect present for you.

To every girl who gets her heart
broken, because he chose that bitch instead

To every girl that would die
to have a decent boyfriend.

To every girl who would just once like
to be treated like a princess.

To every girl that cries at night
because of another heartbreak.

To every girl that won't get down on her knees
and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.

To every girl that
just wants to hold hands.

To every girl that
kisses him with meaning.

To every girl who
just wishes he cared more.

To every girl who would just once want a guy to give
their jacket up when they are cold.

To every girl who
just wants him to call.

To every girl who lies
awake at night thinking about him.

To every girl that
just wants to cuddle.

To every girl that
just wants to sleep with him without having sex.

To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart
out there again, because she has been HURT
too many times or so badly.

To every girl who shows how much
she cares and gets nothing back.

To every girl that thought
'maybe this one could be the one'.

To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff
when she actually doesn't think it is funny.

To every girl who is just looking for that one
and only and is having a rough time along the way.

To every girl that has been cheated on,
because she's not a slut who gives it up to any guy.

To every girl that doesn't want a guy who
just plays with her emotions but actually cares
about how she feels.

To every girl who wants
words backed up with actions.

To every girl that fell for all the lies
only to find themselves alone in the end.

To every girl that gave her heart away
to have it shoved back in her face.

To every girl that has faith that 'tomorrow will be a better day.'

And it will be.